With God, A Warrior Always Finds a Way

I was working with a client recently, for the first time. I knew nothing about him prior to the session. I usually have clients fill out a health history form, and he did, but the session was short notice and I didn’t get it in time to read it before the session. 

He told me he has knots as hard as steel, all over his body. These extremely painful knots have been there for many yrs, and make him unable to work. He spends most of his time in pain. He had been doing acupuncture for them for yrs, every week, and it helps, but hasn’t cured the condition. When I scanned his energy field, the first thing I saw is that this is a very creative person. I also saw a huge knot behind his shoulders. I tuned into that, and saw that he is also actually very hard working. But that energy that is meant to be used for hard work is being held back, mostly by his own choosing, and is turning into all these knots in his body. He had a giant knot in his stomach, and a big one in his throat. I did clearing work to clear the energy charge from all these knots. I intuitively picked up that he holds back his creative energy, and his ability to work hard. I could feel that he feels unappreciated in the world, and doesn’t want to give to the world for that reason. 

I told him what I saw and felt, and asked him what of that resonated. He confirmed that, and said that the white Christian man, which is what he is, is the most hated person in the world right now. That for yrs he keeps being attacked by women who hate him, who say he oppressed someone there, he enslaved someone there, and that he is basically a devil. He said, ‘Thats not me, I didn’t do any of that.’ He said they back stab and gossip about him. He also showed me art that he used to make when he was a teenager, and these were really beautiful drawings and paintings. Of the level that you could see being sold in an art gallery. But he was told that no one makes money with art, so he just quit. He did hard physical labor instead. And he said he worked very hard for years, doing exceptionally well with that. But people told him he charged too much even though he was very good at what he did. He said that people couldn’t even believe how much weight he could lift, day in and day out. And that some men twice his size, would crap out of the job in two weeks, because they couldn’t lift as much as he could. 

But then he started to have so much chronic pain all over his body, that he had to quit that job. My guidance told me that the reason he is in so much pain is because he is an extremely creative person, and he needs to do creative things for work. Not a boring 9-5, and not sitting alone in a basement hiding from angry feminists who hate white men. His suppression of his gushing creative energy, is turning against him and is turning into an autoimmune disease. In a way his prison of pain is self created. No one is forcing him to not do what he loves. But when all you get is criticism, vilification, and attack, and you feel that no one appreciates what you do, no one cares about your creative work or the ideas you have to share, it’s hard to be motivated to do anything at all. I completely understood this person. I've felt like that in the past, and I overcame and healed that.

There are so many men who feel exactly like this now also. The creative, smart, hard working white men are walking away from wanting to participate in society, because as this man said, ’The whole world is against me.’ From a Shamanic Healer perspective there are powerful deep healing processes that I do, that are precisely what can help his condition. Clearing past contracts in the Akashic records, doing a lot of soul retrieval, doing more cleansing and clearing work, doing energy healing work for the knots, Spiritual Counseling to help him identify what his true passions, gifts and talents are and creating an actionable plan to bring them out in service to humanity. All these things are part of my work with my clients, and I do it with a lot of joy. I love to see people blossoming, and living in their passion!

But on a human level, I sit back and I see what is happening with the world. As a child, I suffered a lot of abuse, specifically at the hands of high ranking military white men. They were always and only white men. However, I’ve taken the many yrs that it has taken me, to heal that. I don’t hate white men, or any men. I don’t hate women. I don’t harbor hate towards anyone. I have had male friends for many yrs, and we get along fine. I have had a lot of male clients and I have no issues working with them. I really make it my goal to be of service in the world to everyone, who wishes to learn what I teach, or needs the type of healing help that I offer. I don’t discriminate by external superficial criteria. I work with the soul, spirit and essence of each person.

So why is it that so many women in the US, who did not suffer that level of physical abuse by men, did not suffer SRA, did not suffer torture, or slavery, or war, express so much hatred for white men, or men in general? Why so much hate? I know I’m not the only one asking this question. About half the country is asking it right now. Maybe half of the world.

I also have to say that in my adult life, it has generally been women, not men, who have created problems for me. They’ve gossiped, back stabbed, manipulated, were jealous, unsupportive, attacked, harassed, and assassinated my character or my business. The person who made death threats against me and my family, several years ago, was a clinically diagnosed mentally ill sjw woman. The person who assaulted my son, by punching him in the face, when he was 4 yrs old, was a woman. Consistently its been women, jealous of me for reasons I don’t think I’ll ever understand, who would attack my character, or my business, or my family.  Why would anyone be jealous of me and my life, can someone explain that please?

My family ran away from a Satanic Military cult in Russia. In the cult, I was tortured, beaten, raped by groups of men, literally killed (and ressusitated) multiple times, as a standard methodology of Satanic Ritual Abuse. I was medically experimented on by the military, in Milab. I had various surgeries that no one explained to me. I was nearly sacrificed to the devil in a Satanic ritual, yet I survived. And many other things I don’t want to write about in this blog, but will probably eventually. Thats why I never understand why anyone would be jealous of my life?

My family emigrated to this country with zero money. We left everything behind, we just wanted to be free. My family used to own land, property, etc in Russia. They left everything behind, and we started here from zero here. We lived in poverty when we got here and we worked our butts off for everything we have. I did a lot of self healing and therapy because I knew that was the only way I was going to become a productive member of society. Even at young age, I knew that the rest of the world didn’t give a sh** what I had been through. And even if they cared, there was nothing they could do to help me. Most people just have no clue about these types of things, and don’t want to know. I knew I had to help myself recover. If it was to be, it was up to me. And I spent many 1000s of hours, healing myself. I became my own expert healer, by necessity. I used to have chronic all body pain, just like this client, but for a different reason. And it was misdiagnosed incorrectly, for many years, until I myself figure out the true cause. I then did research and found the right set of treatments that would cure it. And then I had to do more research to find the right doctors to administer the treatments. I managed my own healing plan, and eventually I successfully healed from the pain. For all of my symptoms, I had to research treatments myself, and manage my own healing process myself, simply because after many yrs of working with very many doctors, professionals, healers, etc, I found that it was a tiny minority that could actually help me. Everyone else was mediocre, didn’t understand deep seated trauma, and not only did not know about SRA, Milab and SSP, but were afraid to find out or talk about it, which made them totally useless in my healing process.

Eventually I healed from most of my symptoms. Because the real cures come from holistic medicine and alternative medicine, insurance of course doesn’t cover any of that. So I had to pay for everything out of pocket. It took a lot of time, energy and money to do so. Real healing is truly hard work. But I became versed in very many healing modalities, while I experimented with everything, to see what would work for me. Since I couldn’t get worse, I could only get better, I felt free to experiment with everything. And that experimentation gave me a lot valuable knowledge of how healing modalities actually work, or not. That is the silver lining to having gone through so much trauma, suffering and pain, is that you become an expert healer/ therapist. Once I healed myself, helping most other people was significantly easier.

When you are totally wounded and broken, you either heal or you die. There is no middle ground. And I have the Warrior Spirit so I refuse to ‘go gentle into that good night.’ There were several times in my life, when I was in so much physical pain for weeks or months, I couldn’t walk, or could barely walk, that  I thought I might have to be in a wheel chair, or get on disability. But I always found a way to heal. One key characteristic of a Warrior, is that we always find a way. If no way existed before, we create a way.
 
And then later in life, I built my business from scratch myself. Nobody in my family owned a business before, much less a spiritual business. My parents were academics from a communist country, and very damaged people themselves. They never got the principles of business or money, or spirituality for that matter. So when I had a spiritual re-awakening in 2001, I was on my own. After 911, I had a spontaneous break through of many repressed memories from the past, from my childhood, from the cult, from past lives on this planet and on other planets, from the SSP. I didn’t know what any of that was, or how to navigate those realms.

I had to figure out everything on my own. First my spiritual condition. Then my practical life. I did a lot of research. I read books, I attended seminars, and workshops, I sought out teachers, mentors. At that time, I found John, my Shamanic Mentor with who I studied for 9 yrs. Who is really like my Spiritual Father. I felt guided by God to start a spiritual business. So I sought out successful people who were willing to share with me, how they became successful. And I paid them with my own money, that I earned while working at crappy jobs or just decent enough jobs. I started multiple business that failed, but every time I learned something important, about some aspect of how a business should work. I invested in myself, my education, and my health, and little by little, I built my practice and business organically. I never relied on any gov handouts. I didn’t even know how to get them, to be honest. My family is extremely proud, and though they could’ve legally gotten various hand outs, they never sought them, either.

And yet I’ve had so called friends, who knew how hard I worked, that everything I have, I have because I personally went and worked for it, ethically and fairly, by offering valuable services that people found beneficial and worth paying for. 
And yet these so called friends, instead of celebrating my overcoming of enormous challenges, my victories, my success despite all odds, told me I should give away everything I have and become a philanthropist. Really? Have any of them done that? As it is I live a spartan life style. People would walk into my apt, and they thought I just moved in, because in my living room, I have only fitness equipment and an altar.
Seriously, what is wrong with the world today, that nobody values good old fashioned hard work any more? Work ethic and grit are practically non existent today. Both are key qualities of a true Warrior, by the way.

It’s not just the men who are attacked by crazy women/ feminists/ sjw’s/communists who tear down their businesses, and deplatform them and trash them and assure that they never work again. Its women like me too. Women who don’t fit into the mold of the feminist communist npc, or a new age Stepford wife. And I never will fit into these molds. Nor does it matter, apparently, to the weaponized feminists what types of actual real life oppressions and tyranny I have been through, unlike them. They don’t care. They just want to tear down anyone who is ‘self made,’ who is truly creative and hard working. That is the very essence of communism.

All of these fake outrage mob people, they think they are warriors. They are not. The only thing they know how to do with their swords is back stab. I am a real warrior. I humbly serve a sacred cause. I take responsibility for my own life. Thats the definition of a Warrior. If something doesn’t work, I make it work. If something is lacking, I create it. I don’t go nagging on the gov to make it happen for me. I don’t destroy other people’s lives because I’m jealous of their success. I admire those who do better than me, and I hire them to be my mentors! 

What is going on with American women, that some American men are afraid of them, and would rather marry women from other cultures?

With all that said, I have had many wonderful female (and male) friends, collaborators, colleagues, teachers who have shown me nothing but respect, kindness, love, appreciation, etc. so the problem isn’t with ‘all women’ or ‘all men’ or ‘all white ppl’, or ‘all fill in the blank.’ But something really is off in our modern culture. The presence of the crazy feminist communists is also just a symptom of a deeper cause. There are probably many causes. Of course the globalist mind control, the retarded education, the retarded mind control media, the poison in the foods, the water, the air, the vaccines, etc, etc. All that is true. And still, some people rise above that, they figure out the manipulations at work, and don’t allow themselves to become co-opted, and learn to think for themselves anyway, learn to heal their ‘victim mentality’, learn to be masters of their lives. Why is it that some do, and so many don’t? I’ll leave that question for you to ponder.

But one thing I’ve noted consistently, is that all these crazy feminist communist people who are destroying society, trashing and deplatforming people, none of them have God in their lives. Most if not all of them are atheists. And some of them are openly professing Satanism. That’s why their lives are empty, and why they are unhealed, and so angry and hateful, and why they think they need to take from someone else to have anything. Because if you’re not connected to your Higher Power, to God, who is the Source of All blessings and healing, you will not have creative energy to build your life, or to heal your wounds. 

I’m not talking about a God of some specific religion. God has no religion. The word God has been so misused and abused so much. But I think deep down everyone feels there is a Higher Power, a loving force in the universe, the Creator of all. That is what I call God. I could also say Great Spirit, Source, Infinite Light, Supreme Being, and many other lovely names.

And for that reason I encourage everyone to seek the true God. No matter what kind of problem you have, realize God has a solution. Whatever question you have, God has an answer. Ask God for help with all things, and you will be helped. Guaranteed. Ultimately, only God is real. Seek your identity, in God, within yourself. This world has only problems, no solutions. All the solutions are in God.

If you're not sure how to connect or re-connect with your Higher Power, you were raised with no spirituality, no religion, or a very stringent religion that is not offering you support, I may be able to help you. If you have wounds from the past that are blocking your progress, I can help you. Feel free to reach out, by contacting me.