Your True Nature is Your STRENGTH

When I was a kid I was doing a lot of fighting. I would get into ferocious physical fights where kids would get injured and bleed, on the regular. I recall lots of fist fighting, people using sticks and cords to wip each other, sticks with nails in them, people throwing rocks at each other, cuts, bleeds, bruises. I even recall 1 stabbing, but that was not common. For a generation raised on devices and safe spaces, it might be hard to believe, that at such a young age kids in my neighborhood were fighting like little gangsters. I can only imagine how older kids at that time fought. This is just how things were behind the iron curtain, or maybe it was my neighborhood.

I don’t know if that’s normal in all countries at that time, but it seemed to be the norm in my neighborhood when I was growing up in Russia in the 80s. I recall when I was about 8, a boy’s parents came to my house with a large crowd of rowdy people, complaining to my mother that I’m beating up their sons, and I’m beating up boys in the neighborhood. They thought I was a boy. When they found out I was a girl, they could not believe it, and they quickly left. Because what an embarrassment to have your 10+ year old sons get beat up by an 8 year old girl.

Some of my mother’s friends were trying to have talks with me. I was told that I’m a girl, and that I should be pretty and wear dresses, tone down my intensity, pull back, smile more, be nicer, be diplomatic, don’t argue, don’t fight, and on and on. I was told that if I just smile more and act more diplomatically, I can get whatever I want. So I tried that, wearing dresses, smiling more, etc. and all that did was attract lots of boys who were hitting on me. That’s not what I wanted. So I was back to fighting, all of them. Lol I did not want to wear dresses. You can’t do hand stands and hang upside down in a dress. Hello. I only wanted to wear sports clothes. It didn’t help that my mother was getting me to wear my brothers hand me down clothes, confusing her own message. But I think that was due to a money issues.

I’m realizing now that what I really could have excelled at were fighting sports. But no one gave me that option. And certainly no one would pay for that.

Adults were really trying to give advice they thought was best, and direct me in a way that didn't create problems for them. But they didn’t know my heart, they could not see my nature. I did not know then and for a long time, and they probably did not know that I have a warrior spirit.

So in the end, all that advice did was make me more angry, because it didn’t fit. It’s like a shoe that’s too small, you can never get used to it. Either the shoe breaks or you injure your foot. Either way it’s certainly not a pretty and graceful situation, to try to wear a shoe that’s too small. There is nothing feminine about this.

My brother once told me that he could not understand how there could be such an immense amount of aggression in such a small person.

I think about how amazing it would’ve been if, when I was a kid I had a coach who put me in training, or a program I could join, and channel all that amazing energy I had into more constructive fighting. Then maybe at 17 I would’ve been winning medals in sports or martial arts.

But that’s not what happened. Surviving on planet earth, turned out to so hard, that I had to fight for every square inch of my life, health and freedom. I had to fight for every penny I ever earned. And I became a warrior anyway. Whether I liked it or not, whether other people liked it or not.

Ultimately you have to work with the nature you have. Otherwise, you will always be working against your own nature, and that means you’ll be against yourself. At war with your own nature. Literally the worst position you can be in, in life.

Because when push comes to shove, your true nature always comes out. Especially under severe stress, your true character expresses itself. Those moments in life when you are tested, are so deeply precious. Because those are the times when, all the facades fall off, the masks slip, and you get to find out what you’re really made of. How do you respond to a challenge? When the rug is pulled from under you? How do you respond when you get punched in the face? Literally or figuratively, by life, or by a situation. By a terminal diagnosis, by a bankruptcy, by a betrayal, by all of your family suddenly dying in a car accident, by war breaking out in your city, etc, etc.

Your immediate response will tell you everything about your nature. In a time of a great calamity where people are dying, some people are well prepared, and they jump in and rescue others. Some people only rescue themselves and help no one else. ​ Some people are not well prepared, but they are willing to sacrifice their own life trying to save as many others as possible. Some people bullshit their way out of doing any work. Some people take the credit for the persons who did all the work. Some people take advantage of the chaos and steal from others. Some people die because they are stuck in analysis paralysis, and do nothing. And so on.

Observe yourself carefully, in a crisis. And others. They always will show their true colors. If you get good, you won’t need a crisis anymore. You will know the character of the person within minutes of meeting them, because people can’t help but reveal who they really are, either in words, or body language, or energy.

Once you identify your true nature, cultivate it, channel it, discipline it. Because you can never escape your nature, or have it be schooled or civilized out of you, or have it be beaten out of you. In the end, no matter how many layers of mind control lay on top of your true nature, if you are faced with a life or death situation your true nature will always emerge.

Your true nature is your savior. In any uncertain situation, look within into your true nature and you will find the Creator, the solution, the answer, the path out of any hell or any crisis.

But whatever you are, be excellent. If you are an artist, a leader, a healer, an entrepreneur, an accountant, a mother, a warrior - if that’s your calling, be devoted to it, and be your best.

So after a while, I concluded that most advice I ever got was really wrong for me. The advice I got as a kid that women need to just wear dresses, wear lipstick and smile, look pretty, be agreeable, and then you get whatever you want, sounds like a cartoon caricature of what someone thinks women are or should be. It's not the essence of female. It certainly was not my essence. 

I think that is a very superficial idea of a female. There are lots of Warrior Goddesses, Warrior Princesses, Warrior Queens, fierce mother protector spirits, in ancient mythology, religion, and folklore. And just plain fierce female deities and spirits in all world traditions, going back many thousands of years. It is an aspect of the female nature. To try to deny that it has a useful positive purpose would be unwise.

I had to fight for every square inch of everything I have. Nobody gave me hand outs for being pretty and smiling, except free unsolicited ass grabs. Maybe in some fantasy land, or chivalrous ancient past, that was reality. We’re not in Kansas anymore. In NYC in 2022, if you are not a warrior, you will not survive for 5 seconds. Actually anywhere on this planet at this point. By the way, I'm also not a feminist, because I hate cults. To me, feminism, like the new age, is just a 'satanism light' movement. Fake empowerment cults that breed BS artists. 

I’m 100% female, I never thought of being a man, or identified as a man, I don’t have a gay molecule in my body. I love kids. I think marriage and family is really important, and is critical for our survival as a species.

I’m simply wired differently. And I know currently there are lots of women who are like me. Female warriors have always existed, and always will. And it’s a very bad idea to try to change us into ‘soft demure women’, because all that happens, is that eventually all that energy comes back with a vengeance. You can’t change a tiger into a mouse. And if you try, the tiger just might eat you.

God did not make a mistake. The Creator designed some women this way for a very good reason. I believe that when our society needs something, the Creator sends specific people to fill that need. It appears, our society needed female Spiritual Warriors at this time, because there are lots of us here now, fighting a lot of battles.

Obviously women and men are wired differently. Women are not small men, or weaker men, as some old crock pot science purported. Male warriors don’t fight exactly the same way as female warriors do. We think a bit differently and have slightly different needs in our training and recovery. Our hormones are very different. But both women and men can and should be warriors, if that is what the Creator calls them to.

It was sometime in my 20’s that I identified the Archetype of the warrior as the most matching for my personality. And I’m still figuring out how to use it constructively, for the benefit of humanity. That’s how long it took, because of lack of guidance, and many mistakes. I would have accomplished so much more at a younger age, and would be doing a lot less unnecessary fighting, if I had better guidance, teachers, coaches, better leadership.

But why I’m writing about this now, is because I’d like to make a point that there are lots of tomboy girls, who grow up to be basically normal females. And there are boys who want to play with barbies when they are kids, but then grow up to be normal men. I have seen it all. I’m an example of a strong female who is very female, and happy to be female. I’m totally at peace with my nature exactly as it is. I love the Creator for this genius design. Nothing needs to be changed about my nature. It only needs to be cultivated, like a garden.

I'm now over 40, and I still only want to wear gym clothes! But now I'm a Fitness Coach, so now I get to do what I love for a living. Sometimes I wear dresses and make up on special occasions. No issues with that at all. There is a right time for everything.

Check out this post I saw online recently:

Sadly there is a movement now that is deeply against nature. Only demonic minds could have thought this up. I really don’t like this movement where girls who are tom boyish or just confused are told they are really boys, and boys are told they are girls. At extremely young age, like 4-5 already, they are given drugs and expensive surgeries, to ‘change’ their gender. As if that can be changed, or can change their identity, or solve any of their life problems. At such a young age, they don’t know anything yet. They can’t make a correct decision about big things like gender re-assignment surgeries, that actually could kill them. Even adults sometimes get surgeries like that and then regret it and realize it was a misinformed, emotional or bad decision. And they want to go back.

This fad of inversion of gender in children is actually called The Satanic Inversion, and this is a form of Satanic Ritual Abuse. Research those terms if you don’t know what that is. This is a form of human sacrifice in satanic cults, where a person has to sacrifice a part of themselves in exchange for dark satanic power. Some people literally cut parts of their body off, and some cut parts of their soul off. Both are very damaging to the person, spiritually, not just physically. It creates a trauma bond to the cult and to Satan.

Kids don’t need gender re-assignment surgeries to make them happy. Kids don’t need to be taught about porn, gay or straight, in or out of school, in elementary school or middle school.

Kids need love, guidance, healthy food, a safe secure home and family life, a higher purpose in life.

And another thing that kids really need is knowledge that there is a future for them and their kids, that is actually positive and free of satanist who want to chop off their body parts! Right now that is hard to come by. And no amount of gender reassignment surgeries and porn education will ever change their true nature. Eventually their true nature will come out, and it will come out with a vengeance. There are times when we should fight, when we need the warrior spirit. All the butchered girls and boys, when they get old enough to realize what was done to them, will yet fight back against their satanic abusers. And they will win. That will be a great day.

Some Satanists worship this figure below which I won't name. But it is part male, part female, part animal and part AI (Artificial Intelligence). They want to turn the entire human race into this type of species: part female, part male, part animal, part AI. And that would be 100% Satanic and 100% un-natural. This is an attack on the entire human species. The question is, how will you respond?

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